i'm home!! it's so nice to be home even though i have mixed feelings about being here. of course i want to be here but being at the hospital just feels safe. but wherever i am, i know i am being taken care of and baby and i will be ok. if my uterus starts acting up again then i'll just head right back to the hospital. luckily, we don't live too far and i always have someone available to take me within 10 minutes of my calling them. today my uterus is being so good. it's nice and soft and i'm not having any of those annoying contractions. baby is moving around a lot which i love. we got to see him again on the ultrasound before they discharged us. it's still so weird to see this little person inside of me. it's pretty amazing. seeing his chest take in breaths of amniotic fluid is trippy. we saw his little heart beating, his eyelids blinking and he was sucking on the back of his hand. i can't wait to meet him. but i hope he stays put for a few more weeks. being that today is the last day of january, it looks like we're going to make it to february. i just can't believe it. i never thought we would get this far. 34 weeks is just around the corner. i totally thought baby was going to arrive last thursday when i was contracting (the pic above shows the baby's heart rate on the top line and the contractions on the bottom) and dilated to 3cm. john and i looked at eachother and said almost simultaneously, "i'm not ready". baby must have heard us because eventually the contractions just stopped and the drama was over. but it was pretty scary and it really HURT! the nurses kept asking me what my pain tolerance was and i have NO IDEA. i was guessing that my pain was around a level 5 but i have no clue. i just know it hurt when i was contracting and i have no idea how much pain i can take. i'm not against an epidural but how do i know if and when i'll need it if i don't know how bad it will get? i guess it's not something i should worry about until the time comes. i know that God has everything planned out for us and i just have to sit back and enjoy the ride. He's gotten us this far and i can't wait to see what's in store for us next!
side note: we took some 32 week belly pics before being admitted into the hospital and i just posted them on the blog (scroll down to see 'em).
side note: we took some 32 week belly pics before being admitted into the hospital and i just posted them on the blog (scroll down to see 'em).
3 comments:
how cool that you were able to actually see him blinking and sucking his hand...that is so cute!
any new ultrasound pics?
Flip flopper :) You have done such an amazing job you know- it is not easy to do what you are doing and you're doing it. Even though contractions are not in your control but your attitude helps. You're positive and optimistic and that will get you the best outcome! I hope you stay dilated for 20 years and that little muffin stays inside there! Ok not 20 years but a few weeks maybe? Days? Whatever- at this point baby Bennett is healthy and ready to conquer the world! I know what you mean when you're not ready. When it starts happening, the panic sets in and gone is the stable. optimistic mommy. Welcome the panic freak! We can't help it- But you have done so amazing and you will be ready when the time is truly right.
GOOD JOB KIM!!!!!
Kim,
I've kind-of 'adopted' your blog into my daily routine now! Thanks for checking into ours the other day! It was nice to see a comment from you! I am so happy to hear that you are home and that the baby has decided to 'cook' a bit longer! :) 34 weeks will be another big milestone! I am certain though, that with the steriods, the stress he's had in utero and God's provision, he will do just fine whenever he decided to come. Did anyone ever tell you that babies who have a long-term stress to their bodies in utero tend to develop at a faster rate than their non-stressed counterparts? For example, a 34 weeker who was born preterm due to a mom having say, a car accident will likely have less developed lungs than a 34 weeker who's mommy has early, sustained contractions or pre-eclapmsia like me. It is God's perfect design...He takes care of our little preterm ones even before they are born!
Anyway...you are doing an awesome job...bedrest must be so tough! Hang in there! We will continue to pray for you guys!
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