Feelings

today caleb and i went to a baby shower at my old work. a former co-worker of mine is having a baby and i was thrilled to show up for the shower. she's had a rough time over the past year-and-a-half and is due to have a baby girl in july. as i watched her open each gift while unable to hold back her tears, i held back tears of my own. i felt like i knew what she was feeling at that moment. the tears of happiness and joy that overwhelm you because after going to dozens of baby showers over the years, you never thought you'd have one of your own. and now it's happening and all of your emotions just take over and you can't do anything but cry. tears of joy and disbelief because God is giving you everything you've ever wanted. even after going through all of the trials you ask yourself, "how did i get so lucky?". i look at Caleb today and i am reminded of how far we've come. i will never take a single day for granted when i am lucky enough to have the greatest blessing standing right in front of me. i love him so much..... and you know what? he loves me too.